Heath posted a powerful blog entry about his own personal tortured and special history with the “World of God”.
I ran to the Bible whenever the fight became too hard. I ran to it like an abusive lover; it’s words and its ideas hurt, but I enjoyed the pain. The pain meant that it was working. The pain was part of the process. I wrapped myself in the pain, believing with all of my heart that it was the antidote to the horrible, sinful feelings I had. I waited patiently for my transformation, but it never came.