Gratitude

This week will mark six years since the premiere of my play, Doin’ time in the Homo No Mo Halfway House and the begining of LGBTQ activism that has shaped, challenged and aided me in my own recovery from the Ex-Gay Movement and a life of rotting under the weight of homophobia and heterosexism.

How lovely to walk in the light, to be a peace within myself about who I am and how I am wired, to get beyond the crime of trying to fit in to please other people in the name of God.

Thank God I am gay. What a gift to be given! I once would have sold my soul to be straight. How I begged God to fix me or at least to collude with me to reject a part of me. It proved unecessary. No need for all that violence against myself. I am a man who desires men and who presents in what some say is in a feminine fashion. This is not only normal for me, and many others, but a most excellent way to be wired.

Today as I prepare for my play about transgender Bible characters I experience joy and gratitude.

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  1. Jim Burroway on February 15, 2009 at 7:28 pm Reply

    And I an grateful for how you’ve served and nurtured your gifts for the betterment of so many people whose live have been touched.

  2. Romeo Vitelli on February 15, 2009 at 8:28 pm Reply

    Very nice sentiment. Thanks for sharing.

  3. Sheriah-SA on February 15, 2009 at 9:33 pm Reply

    Toscano, you can not change that which you are born with…Thats why you were married and still cheated on your wife with gay men like u have mentioned several times in your blogs.Issues of homosexuality come a long long way, even in Bible times! Remember when men showed up at Lot’s house and demanded that he give them the men who had previously arrived at his home, and he refused by the way, and suggested he give them the women instead?? Same with the issue of transgenda.. As kids growing up in Zambia, our father exposed us to city life at a very young age, but we had the priviledge of enjoying rural life too. The other day i talked to my sister here in SA (u should meet her) and we talked LOTS about you. Told her i worked with Toscano (ok peter) at christian voice. Then your transgenda play poped up in our discussion. Then she reminded me, that remember the man who used to insist he must be called Zinia?! I was like yes, yes!! And that was back in the late 70s when we were babies..

  4. Sheriah-SA on February 15, 2009 at 9:52 pm Reply

    Bottom line Peter is, these issues abov homosexuality and transgender come a long way, they have always been there. The same man whom we used to call Zinia never looked like a man nor a woman, he looked like both and as kids, we were so fascinated by him! And that was in a rural area in Zambia and Zinia had never seen a tv set..I wish i could write more, but am still recovering from my valentines hangover! Now, having said this though, my question is, is it ok to be gay and christian? Thats a whole hour show with Oprah and Tyra! An issue causing a stir amongst christians, especially where the pope is saying what he is saying! By the way, am hooked on Peter Ould’s posts, he has some pretty interesting things to say! Ok, let me continue watching sixteen candles, so 80s, hilarious!

  5. Sheriah-S.A. on February 15, 2009 at 10:19 pm Reply

    Here is my last one. Christians say with a lot of prayer you can change from being gay. As a christian myself, sometimes i believe this, sometimes i dont know: I am not gay myself, i am a straight young lady. Sometimes i think that if someone is really born gay, how can he/she change something so engraved in their blood! Yes, thats why i said, even as a christian, am torn apart on this issue. I wish you strength my dear, as you travel in this journey…because this one hell of an issue causing contraversy! (being gay and christian)

  6. alexander resare on February 16, 2009 at 8:20 am Reply

    I’m thankful you’re gay too. You have enrichened my life in many ways.

    Six years… Your baby grew up fast and beautifully. Grattis!

  7. Yuki Choe on February 16, 2009 at 4:14 pm Reply

    I like to thank you for inspiring me to be happy and proud that I am a different female. It means a lot to me. A lot! :- )

  8. lower case paul on February 16, 2009 at 5:51 pm Reply

    Gratitude. I remember even long ago when I was in the throes of fighting tgt tooth and nail, still experiencing moments of gratitude for… tgt. Even when I had no doubt that I had been the victim of satan, bad parenting, schoolyard bullies and my own poor choices, I would have moments of clarity where I actually thanked God for tgt. Even then I could see the gift of perspective that being gay gave me, how who I am undermined my own superior preconceived notions about how I should be. That perspective was easily transferred to others. I became much kinder and more sensitive to the disenfranchised. Even in my blindness, it’s as though my other senses compensated to tell me things my eyes couldn’t see.

  9. Joe G. on February 16, 2009 at 8:07 pm Reply

    lower case paul, what is “tgt”?

  10. lower case paul on February 16, 2009 at 9:53 pm Reply

    hi joegee,

    sorry, assumed that was common parlance. “the gay thing”

    🙂

  11. Christine Bakke on February 16, 2009 at 11:08 pm Reply

    Beautiful, Peterson. My life would be so much poorer if you weren’t in it with your authentic self.

  12. Sheriah-SA on February 17, 2009 at 12:33 am Reply

    Peter, i just promised you that i will be passing by your blogs whenever i can (check your 16th feb post)..For those reading peter’s post, you may be interested to know that peterson was my “boss”(the word boss sounds wiered) at christian voice radio..Peter and i good friends…As a journalist, i may have to start sharing some of these issues on my page at http://www.myspace.com/belasheria, http://www.myspace.com/bbellla

  13. Stasa on February 21, 2009 at 6:57 am Reply

    Peterson, I first met you, and saw you perform “Doin’ Time,” at FLGBTQC’s Mid-Winter Gathering in 2004 in Burlington, NJ. I was so grateful to you then, and am so grateful to you know, for your courageous faithfulness, your honesty, and your humor. Most of all, I’m grateful and joyful that I can call you Friend and friend. Much love, Stasa

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